Dark side in us

Human - a living creature characterized by kindness, mercy, or compassion. Gracefully described as this, but in reality, the sun does not shine on all sides of a human being. There is this part which the sun fails to light. A facet which is characterized by pain, anger, madness, revenge, or sometimes, murderous intent. All of which are benign, but capable of being triggered.

People get mad, especially when they feel violated, or somebody else has taken something significant from them without their permission. Sometimes, people just get mad when situations are not rolling to their sides. It is a normal human reaction to these circumstances, recoiling the force that was exerted to them.

But some people just can't be mad at all, though they have experienced humiliation and violation, or some kind of abuse, may it be verbal, physical or emotional. Instead, they just choose to be still and let go of that ordeal. For some reason, they just have this extra string of patience to understand the felon. As if there is no room for revenge within their hearts. They choose not to stoop down at that level, maintaining their dignity as a pacifistic person. For some, they claim love as the main reason. Their love for others, especially on the ones close to them incarcerates them from being furious. Because they do care. As simple as that. They just do treasure their memories, to a point that retaliation is considered unnecessary. Regardless of the amount of love that they receive in return.

It is abnormal for a human not to react at all. But they opt not to. It's a grace from God that they manage to lit their dark sides within, so as to let love reign in them. Let God handle things, His own way. Well, I still hope and pray that God would just let things such as these pass, may God hear my prayer. AMDG.

'Vengeance is Mine, and retribution, In due time their foot will slip; For the day of their calamity is near, And the impending things are hastening upon them.' -Deut 32:35

love and related matters

Talking about matters.. well, this one is about love. As I saw it, I found it really vague. At times it is strong, too strong that not anyone can break it. But there are also times when it is too weak that you cannot fight for it. That's the two faces of it. It is really hard to comprehend both sides at the same time. You need to go through it one at a time, to know and compare the traits of each. Often times, one side can dominate the other. It depends on the two person involved in the relationship, however. Strengthening the love that binds a relationship or weakening it, depends on how much effort does each one give.

1. Acceptance.
Each person in this bond is required to understand and accept the weaknesses of his or her partner. Admitting that the partner is weak in some aspects, may it be in terms of physical features, or talent, or may be when it comes to intelligence. Accepting it as it is, and not covering or concealing it with luscious affirmation. Acceptance does not only goes one way, you should also accept yourself as you are. Admit it, you too are human, an imperfect creation of God. That's a reality, nothing that God has created is perfect. Appreciate your own weaknesses, and learn how to strive through it. At the end, you will learn to love yourself more, despite of the insecurities that you once had. By loving yourself more, you can love your partner even more.

2. Affirmation.
This is a key to overcome weaknesses. By affirming the things that you and your partner give, you will learn to appreciate each other more. Even if one of you failed to yield, affirming him or her will give guts for each one of you to exert more to make your relationship happier. Affirmation in action is needed. Not just through words, words are not enough. For words are like faith; without action, it is also dead. Of course words can give you comfort and sense of support, but it cannot save you from bigger troubles. But in reality, words are just mere concepts and theories pending to be applied. We can always be fooled by glamorous words, especially when we are in desperate situations, that we need instant support, since words are always faster than acting it. Quite easily said than done.

3. Quality time.
Definition of quality time depends on the perception of an individual. For me, sitting beside the one you love, even without any words, is a quality time. For some, quality time is going to the park, sharing experiences with one another, going out on a date, having some coffee together, eating lunch together, walking around together. That may also be defined as quality time. There are other perceptions of this concept. But all boils down on one thing: spending a moment with your beloved is really healthy. It boosts support, presence, appreciation and of course, love.

4. Basic communication.
How often do you talk? When was the last time you heard the voice of your partner? When did you last quarrel? These moments matter in a relationship. For in these events, your hearts converse with one another. Your hearts speak with each other, a two way communication that enhances your bond. When one speaks, you can see through the way your partner says every single word the feelings he or she has behind it. Behind the spoken words, real emotions are exposed through the intonation of each word. And without this, you will just end up trying to interpolate the current mood of your partner. You can understand your partner more and more with each conversation that you have with each other.

5. Understanding.
Understanding your partner, how he or she thinks or reacts is important. By allowing yourself to see even the smallest detail, it can yield to loving your partner at a deeper level. Not just on the level of words, but on the level of hearing and listening. As you enhance this, soon you can arrive at a point where words, may it be written or spoken, are not necessary to understand one another. This is at a level where hearts commune with each other.

6. Contenment
Fidelity is a common issue in a relationship. One becomes unfaithful when you start to look for something that you cannot find in your partner. But this missing thing or trait is just a small percentage of what your partner currently possess. If you just learn how to appreciate the greater factor, you will not be looking for that missing part. Always thank the Creator for making your partner that way. Of course there will always be someone who looks better than your partner, or better than you, that's a fact. But if you are happy with what God has given you, you will always find joy in it. You'll be surprised that this missing percentage will be negligble, contented on the gift that God has given you through your partner. Thank God for making us imperfect, for in our imperfections, God can express His love.




Love while you can, it's a gift that God has bestowed upon us. AMDG!

end of days

It's been a while since I found myself singing one of the songs that technically reflect my life path, specifically on my relationship with my girlfriend.. ex-... As the title of this song implies, I was wondering what really happened. Literally..

Our relationship was stable back then. For almost 4 years of being in that relationship, we had good times and bad times. There were several trials along the way, but we did overcome those. We thought that we were stable enough to withstand any blow. However, the time came when we needed to part ways. During the latter part of my days being in a relationship, there was an outburst of emotions. Hurts, pains and exhaustion filled every corner in our relationship.. No more room for love. As if love has gone its own way and left us empty cells, rooms where other emotions can dwell.. Sad, but that was fate, a fate that we should accept.

Here's the song:

Nakapagtataka

Walang tigil ang gulo sa aking pag-iisip
Mula ng tayo'y nagpasyang maghiwalay
Nagpaalam pagkat di' tayo bagay
Nakapagtataka, ooh-wooh

Kung bakit ganito ang aking kapalaran
Di ba ilang ulit ka ng nagpaalam
Bawat paalam, ay puno ng iyakan
Nakapagtataka, nakapagtataka

CHORUS:
Hindi ka ba napapagod
O di kaya'y nagsasawa
Sa ating mga tampuhang,
Walang hanggang katapusan
Napahid na'ng mga luha
Damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala ng maibubuga
Wala na akong maramdaman

Walang tigil ang ulan at nasaan ka araw?
Napa'no na'ng pag-ibig sa isa't-isa?
Wala na bang nananatiling pag-asa ?
Nakapagtataka, saan na napunta?

CHORUS:
Hindi ka ba napapagod
O di kaya'y nagsasawa
Sa ating mga tampuhang,
Walang hanggang katapusan
Napahid na'ng mga luha
Damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala ng maibubuga
Wala na akong maramdaman

Napahid na'ng mga luha
Damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala ng maibubuga
Wala na akong maramdaman

Kung tunay tayong nagmamahalan
Ba't di tayo magkasunduan

For various reasons... a part of me is still asking God why did He allow this to happen, as part of His plan for me, for us.. Yes, I surrendered to His mighty will. But there is this human side of me that wonders, still. Well, I am human... Gladly, God is constantly helping me recover and stand up back on my feet. :-)

good life

This is what good life is all about.... (not in any particular order)

* my Family
* SF's
* my very own superfriend
* 4F
* bestfriend/s
* ex-gf
* my lambs


A life worth living for, decorated with these blessings. Though I do not see them all the time, I do appreciate each moment that I get to be with them. Of course, the Giver of these gifts made this possible, thank You, my God. =)

On Rejuvenation

"God is not indifferent..God cares for you"

Life is good, when you're in your comfort zone. But when God strips these things that make you feel secured, life becomes staggered. Things start to fall apart. Your wall starts to break. Fear and sadness start to boil inside your heart. Despite these scenario, God is not indifferent. He knew that you have your own limit. And He will not test you beyond it. Surely He will strip away from you things that make you feel strong, to expose the real you. Painful, yes it is.

But God cares for you. As He prunes you, He prepares something bigger for you. He will rejuvenate you with more grace and life blessings, much better from what were stripped away. I found these rejuvenating blessings after God has trimmed me. Pain was replaced with joy overflowing in my heart, with love tunneling through the friends that God gave me. More, I appreciated this grace from God, His love I feel through them.

:-)

finding certainty in the uncertain world

The world itself is uncertain. No human knows what will really happen next. Even life itself is uncertain of its span. Plants wilt after some time. Rain stops after a certain pour. Relationships at times end up crippled. Even your perfect job may soon be the job you will hate the most. Plan A may work today, but not tomorrow. The thing is, everything is temporal, this is a fact. That is why it is hard to find happiness and contentment. Because we are aware that there is an end in everything.

But even in this state, there is still one thing that defies this reality. It is God. He is certain. He is constant. Even if everything fails, God's love will never cease. You can find joy and peace in this uncertain world if you seek His face in every little thing. Surrender to His perfect will, and everything will follow. His plans are great. Let Him drive you to His path, a path to certainty, a path where you can experience His love.

Lord, let your will be done. AMDG.