end of days

It's been a while since I found myself singing one of the songs that technically reflect my life path, specifically on my relationship with my girlfriend.. ex-... As the title of this song implies, I was wondering what really happened. Literally..

Our relationship was stable back then. For almost 4 years of being in that relationship, we had good times and bad times. There were several trials along the way, but we did overcome those. We thought that we were stable enough to withstand any blow. However, the time came when we needed to part ways. During the latter part of my days being in a relationship, there was an outburst of emotions. Hurts, pains and exhaustion filled every corner in our relationship.. No more room for love. As if love has gone its own way and left us empty cells, rooms where other emotions can dwell.. Sad, but that was fate, a fate that we should accept.

Here's the song:

Nakapagtataka

Walang tigil ang gulo sa aking pag-iisip
Mula ng tayo'y nagpasyang maghiwalay
Nagpaalam pagkat di' tayo bagay
Nakapagtataka, ooh-wooh

Kung bakit ganito ang aking kapalaran
Di ba ilang ulit ka ng nagpaalam
Bawat paalam, ay puno ng iyakan
Nakapagtataka, nakapagtataka

CHORUS:
Hindi ka ba napapagod
O di kaya'y nagsasawa
Sa ating mga tampuhang,
Walang hanggang katapusan
Napahid na'ng mga luha
Damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala ng maibubuga
Wala na akong maramdaman

Walang tigil ang ulan at nasaan ka araw?
Napa'no na'ng pag-ibig sa isa't-isa?
Wala na bang nananatiling pag-asa ?
Nakapagtataka, saan na napunta?

CHORUS:
Hindi ka ba napapagod
O di kaya'y nagsasawa
Sa ating mga tampuhang,
Walang hanggang katapusan
Napahid na'ng mga luha
Damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala ng maibubuga
Wala na akong maramdaman

Napahid na'ng mga luha
Damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala ng maibubuga
Wala na akong maramdaman

Kung tunay tayong nagmamahalan
Ba't di tayo magkasunduan

For various reasons... a part of me is still asking God why did He allow this to happen, as part of His plan for me, for us.. Yes, I surrendered to His mighty will. But there is this human side of me that wonders, still. Well, I am human... Gladly, God is constantly helping me recover and stand up back on my feet. :-)